So ...

Nov. 23rd, 2016 04:25 pm
rydra_wong: A dancer (Anie Hanauer) crouches in a performance by Candoco. She has a prosthetic arm. (body -- annie)
[personal profile] rydra_wong posting in [community profile] bodies_in_motion
What's movement for you right now?

Pointless? A resource? Calming/energizing? Something that costs too many spoons? A distraction? A way of owning your body? Impossible? Preparation for fight or flight? Selfish? Self-care? All of the above? None of the above? Something else completely?

ETA: please feel free to interpret "right now" as widely or narrowly as you want, whether that's "right now" as in "at this point in my life" or as in "in the last couple of weeks, in the face of the US election results and other world events". I was thinking of the latter when I wrote this, but either is valid.

Date: 2016-11-23 05:00 pm (UTC)
alexseanchai: Blue and purple lightning (Default)
From: [personal profile] alexseanchai
Too many spoons, but also self-carey? Because I have to stretch when I get stiff, if nothing else.

...I'm way too sedentary.

Date: 2016-11-23 05:02 pm (UTC)
spiralsheep: Einstein writing Time / Space OTP on a blackboard (fridgepunk Time / Space OTP)
From: [personal profile] spiralsheep
I've been struggling for breath outside because of the cold dry air (damp's better for my breathing), and then pacing inside because I have excess physical energy for once. I'm certainly not going to complain about having "too much" energy though, heh.

It's a pity I can't offer someone a small energy transfusion like a blood transfusion!
Edited Date: 2016-11-23 05:02 pm (UTC)

Date: 2016-11-23 10:08 pm (UTC)
spiralsheep: Einstein writing Time / Space OTP on a blackboard (fridgepunk Time / Space OTP)
From: [personal profile] spiralsheep
in the face of the US election results and other world events

I just put my recycling out, which is a practical act of resistance to both doom and gloom (and also includes a brief foray on stairs). :-)

Date: 2016-11-23 05:04 pm (UTC)
premchaia_pre4: (akari)
From: [personal profile] premchaia_pre4

Near-impossible due to disarray and inertia. This probably isn't helping the overall noisy disconnection from somatic things I've started getting again.

Date: 2016-11-28 12:26 am (UTC)
premchaia_pre4: (akari)
From: [personal profile] premchaia_pre4

I'm not sure what you'd prefer, but I'll summarize the (extremely weird) historical context, I guess? Basically, I lost the last year of my life due to being too zetta slow to steer away from a crashy-wall of extreme hormonal dysphoria, during which I wound up barricading myself in virtuality to minimize damage propagation until I could get the hostile chemical barrage fixed from the other side. The last five months or so, then, have prominently featured a rollercoaster of triaging partially-corrupted rubble in/near the “how to interface with the world as myself-in-a-human-body” province of personality-space, including a bunch of re-breaking metaphorical bones that had set wrong. (And then there's the location-related somatosocial deprivation, the major relationship expectation realignment-quakes, the timey-wimey developmental arcs in disorder, the sequential multiplicity memory barrier damage, the chimeraic spiritual duct tape shenanigans…)

The triaging has not gone amazingly well so far: I keep getting torn between avoiding connecting things lest they get reinforced in some subtly wrong configuration, and connecting things to be able to progress at all. (Especially, transition-wise, I'm twitchily averse to binding too hard to my body-as-it-is if it might preclude the body-as-it-should-be image taking hold properly—though that's lessening over time.) Similarly, having to figure out which fragments to try to fix in-place (but would it stick?), or tear down and regrow (in what environment?), or integrate as-is (but maybe retuned and repositioned?), or try to copy corrections of from other sources (which ones can I trust?), or try to recover from past versions of me (which ones?), or who knows what else. So my ability to be me-in-my-body winds up frequently malfunctioning and weak, but very variably so as localized repair decisions flicker and jump erratically—thus “noisy disconnection”. Which then means that attempts to engage in nontrivial movement practice get lost in pits of internal control skirmishes. Which, plus the environment making it super-awkward to get space for that to start with, means that in practice I don't initiate it. Feh. :-/

At least I still have daily short walks, which is slightly better than nothing.

(And I think writing this may have helped clarify things some, so thanks for that.)

Date: 2016-11-23 05:57 pm (UTC)
rmc28: Rachel smiling against background of trees, with newly-cut short hair (Default)
From: [personal profile] rmc28
My main movement practice now is walking. It is:

* My method of commuting.
* Calming and centring.
* Rebuilding my fitness after cancer and chemotherapy.
* Rebuilding my sense of ownership/presence in my body ditto.
* One of my daily meaning-making practices (as referred to in point 4 of
* Definitely self-care, and perhaps selfish, but only in the oxygen-mask-on-first sense.
* Laying a foundation for more movement practices in future (next on the agenda is running; I am trying to look only one step ahead at the moment, but definitely on the list are swimming, climbing and dancing).

Date: 2016-11-23 07:23 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] keepmodes
With purpose. I am stuck in the routine of doing the bare basics. To be blunt, I've been lazy. I need to start adding some yoga and fun walking to the routine.

Date: 2016-11-23 08:01 pm (UTC)
snippy: Lego me holding book (Default)
From: [personal profile] snippy
Movement is power and agency. Movement is walking to pay the rent check now that my husband has moved out (he used to do it). Movement is walking to and from public transit on and off all day Saturday to do shopping and have fun (meals out, movie with my son). Movement is having balance, strength, and energy to cook (something I couldn't do while recovering from multiple major surgeries over the last 4 years).

Movement is independence.

Date: 2016-11-23 09:13 pm (UTC)
syderia: hot pink running shoes on a hardwood floor (exercising)
From: [personal profile] syderia
It's a way to fight against apathy and to generate endorphins. And also, a way to try and feel at home in my body.

Date: 2016-11-23 09:37 pm (UTC)
recessional: a small blue-paisley teapot with a blue mug (Default)
From: [personal profile] recessional
Unbelievably frustrating and difficult.

Am sore in ways that I am pretty sure are a combination of stress tension and somatization; am frustrated by what feels to me like a lack of any increase in endurance or stamina; remembering to do it is hard; I am tired and sad; my emotional responses to my bodily appearance would probably break comm rules to relate; argh someone shoot me.



Date: 2016-11-23 10:58 pm (UTC)
cadenzamuse: Cross-legged girl literally drawing the world around her into being (Default)
From: [personal profile] cadenzamuse
Movement is pretty difficult right now, although when I manage it, I tend to feel better afterwards. Movement is terrifying because the election has me back to near-agoraphobia: if I go outside, what bad thing will happen? (Reasonably, nothing. But tell that to my brain.) "Freeze" is my primary trauma response, so the effort of convincing my body that something else will be more helpful is both directly against the inertia and really health-ful if I manage it.

There is a yoga studio 3 blocks from my house in an area that I walk comfortably after dark, so that may be my next investigation into movement.

Date: 2016-11-24 02:56 am (UTC)
malnpudl: (Default)
From: [personal profile] malnpudl
Movement right now is...
- Walking
- Physical therapy for knees and hips
- Sanity
- Extremely painful
- My primary (and sometimes only) source of joy and positivism
- Wearing down my joints
- Strengthening my body so it can support my worn out joints
- Utterly necessary
- The best part of life

Date: 2016-11-24 03:33 am (UTC)
vass: A sepia-toned line-drawing of a man in naval uniform dancing a hornpipe, his crotch prominent (Default)
From: [personal profile] vass
Last couple of days I've been trying to knead out the head and neck tension, and (on the other end) trying to activate my glutes. That's a large muscle group that I tend to lose connection to easily, which can go completely numb at times, and which my hips/lower back/hamstrings/ITB tend to do the work for. So when they are firing, it gives the rest of that group a bit of a rest, and can cause a general reduction on my tension levels.

Standard advice on how to do this doesn't seem to work for me, so I've just been wiggling around clenching my butt and prodding my thighs and hips and butt so I notice which muscles are/aren't engaged.

Trying to psych myself up to doing some recon at the other swimming pool near enough that I could go there, to see if it's better than the one where I have a membership.

Date: 2016-11-27 03:30 pm (UTC)
vass: A sepia-toned line-drawing of a man in naval uniform dancing a hornpipe, his crotch prominent (Default)
From: [personal profile] vass
I don't remember that term, but omfg it's apt.

I tend to forget that just because my hips are stupidly loose in one direction (external rotation) doesn't mean they're not tight in another (flexion).

That drill looks great for someone without neck and shoulder problems.

Date: 2016-11-26 09:33 am (UTC)
snowynight: Kino in a suit with brown background (Default)
From: [personal profile] snowynight
Starting my C25K run. I have started the second week, and it's actually nice to run at my own pace and focus on the running itself.


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